There is a new struggle in my life. I am spending a lot of time working on my project and learning intellectual stuff but I do not spend much time working on the other areas of my life.
Talking to one of my mentors about the ‘wheel of life’ I discovered that I mostly work on the 2 areas mentioned above, my social life is non-existence, spiritual life is also going bad, not spending as much time taking care of my family and physical life and doing nothing to take care of myself financially…
Apart from that last week I was feeling really bad. I think it was due to lack of sleep so I need to start sleeping more.
And I am over committing myself to do stuff but I do not really have the time to do the things I should be doing and then they all overlap and things get messed up. Or at least they did today…
Finally, ballet has always been my passion since I was about 7 years old. 7 and a half years later I just took the decision of dropping it because I think my physical condition is not appropriate for dancing ballet and I want to improve it before I continue to dance. Unfortunately ever since I took this decision every time I am alone and I listen to music I can’t stop myself from imagining ballet choreographies, no matter the type of music. On the other hand I think it is better to stop until my physical condition improves. Unfortunately I am not making this easy for myself and neither is anyone else… Everyone is just judging me and making fake assumptions including my mom and brothers.
Those are my main struggles right now…